Pensive

This whole new era thing is proving to be difficult.

I have so many questions running through my mind

What do I want?

What do I want from them? Will I be able to tell them?

Am I gonna loose out on a good thing?

I am always praying for zero activity on my cellphones because I am just avoiding situations that I do not want to deal with right now.
I have this theory that I am kinda psychic. There are times that I can think about someone and they just contact me but what happens frequently is when I dread meeting or hearing from someone and they just magically appear before me nkt! That happened today but it did not go so badly but still it wasn't welcomed nonetheless.
This one time a few years ago, I had a dream apparently dreamt is not a word?!  about the Chinese year of the rooster. I had never ever heard about that before so imagine my surprise when I turn on the TV and on CNN they were talking about China celebrating the new year of the rooster fuck!! I totally flipped out!
But after a while, I figured out that I must have heard about it while I slept with the radio on the previous night. It is the only logical explanation the only 1 I will accept!
Being psychic is not something I would like for myself unless I was only capable of foreseeing only good things.

On Tuesday, I entered an overloaded matatu, those big minibuses with graffiti and pictures of various celebrities and there was this one picture of Jesus laughing. He looked radiant, filled with joy and happiness, he looked beautiful. Why aren't all the depictions of Jesus like this? Every picture I see of him looks holy, solemn, sad, pensive, hurt. Maybe if Jesus was depicted looking more joyful, then more people would be drawn to him and want to follow him...


On another note, I am now registered as an African blogger woop! woop!! I think I have a goal now>>>> to make it to the top of the rankings of the best blogs in Africa. By reading this, you have made me one step closer to my goal :)


xxx V xxx

TPF3 Grand Finale

On Sunday I managed to get two tickets for the TPF3 grand finale, and I took my mummy for her birthday, and she was so stoked! She was a huge Alpha and TPF fun, I, not so much, I was pre-ocupied with more interesting things on tv like big brother and the movies Dish have to offer utilising my investment to the max!
So we got there at around 5:30pm and stood around in heels my poor feet till 7:00pm when they finally allowed us to access the dome. We got some great seats near the faculty so we had a fairly clear view.
I must say the cameras do not do Sheila Mwanyiga justice. She is so gorgeous in person and that purple dress was absolutely fabulous! Dr Mitch was looking very handsome, I do not know why people hate on him so much, I think he has a great personality, Gaetano is just overated just a bit. But I think I need to go to Uganda, clearly they have very charming, interesting men over there.

All the contestants came out for the finale, and they did a little number which was really cool.

 

I noticed Kenyans really have mad love for Debarl. Personally, he doesn't move me, I thought he was kinda creepy, boring, and I honestly think that Ng'ang'a has better vocals than Debarl. Just compare his rendition of Nameless's - Deadly and Ngang'a's version of Chuki by Wyre seriously?!

I never got why Kenyans suddenly lost favour for Patricia Kihoro, the pretty girl with the amazing vocal talent. She had to choose between two Kenyans, so she chose Ng'ang'a. Everyone thinks she was malicious for not choosing Debarl because he was the stronger contestant, to an extent it may be true, but she had to make a decision.

 

Turns out saving Ng'ang'a was to her detriment and he emerged 1st runners up in the competition. I am so sure if she did not pick Supalito she would still have been hated on either way.

Her performance during the finale was good, but not as electric as everyone elses. But you should have seen her catwalking like she was a runway model every time she walked on and off the stage. Madam there is no need to feel sucrose, you were number 4!!!

When all the contestants first came out, I was shocked to see Caroline blandly dressed in black pants and a shimmery top, which looked less glamouras then all the other ladies.

 

But when she performed Afro, it finally dawned on my mother and I that she chose that attire for a reason.

These Ugandan lady is definitely a great performer. She can shake that booty like a nonsense, all the men were just transfixed on her ass.

I was surprised that Alpha did not choose to sing a Reggae song during the finale, and I think it was a good idea because we all think that is the genre which he is best suited at.

Ian was put on the 'spot' by Mitch to sing since he always judges but never sings but we all know it was so planned! I think he has a very nice strong voice so I was extremely impressed.

So the time of reckoning came, and it was time to announce the final results

I knew it in my gut that Patricia would come in fourth place, she lost favour with the audience and they let her pay for it which was sad because to be honest, she was the strongest of them all vocally. Just admit it! She tried to maintain her composure after the announcement, plastering a smile on her face as hard as she could, I could not helo but feel sorry for her. Apparently so did the people from KDN felt the same way because they later rewarded her with a Toshiba Laptop. Marathana also offered her a voucher for counselling which she will definitely need when she realizes how people feel about her.

Caroline came in at 3rd place, I was shocked she even won Patricia muhahahaha!  and she got a bunch of great prizes which included a recording deal, laptop, internet, medical cover and free counselling.

When the time came to announce the winner, I honestly had no idea who would win because they both had very good chances of winning. But Alpha took the cup and emerged victorious and I think he totally deserved it.

Alpha is so humble, I am sure all of you who voted for him found that he was very worthy and deserving.

I had a great time at the show, but I still think the grand finale of the first TPF rocked more. They had a bevy of artists who surprised the contestants by singing with them, I thought that was amazing, and even though I watched it on TV I was still very entertained.

I hope they will have more in store for us on the next season of Tusker Project Fame.

My apologies for the fuzzy pics, flashes are not allowed during filming

xxx V xxx

Nourtney Curtado

I have always thought that Nelly Furtado and Courtney Cox- Arquette have an uncanny resemblance.

 

  

Turns out even Demi Moore looks like she sipped from the same gene pool. They all have beautiful long raven locks, intense penetrating eyes, and beautiful bone structures. Gorgeous!!

I heart Nelly Furtado's music, it is just so unique and cool.

Monica was actually my least favorite Friends character because the rest were way cooler, but she was still part of one of the greatest shows ever so I had nothing against her. She was so ruthless in Dirt, now I can't wait to check her out in Cougar Town.

As for Mrs. Kutcher, I cannot say she has made any particular impact in my life, but that husband of hers is really swell. hot!

The dawn of a new era....

Just look at her, she looks so free, without a care in the world. Thats what I want for myself starting from today.
I'm done with worrying about stupid things like if he will get mad if I do not hola. Or wondering why he came back and never bothered to tell me but shiyet he was looking so fwyne!!
Yes I am taking a break from men. I do not need that drama, I prefer my life stress free thank you!! I thought having options was fun, but I think I bit off more than I could chew. The current situation is, one guy's girlfriend psycho stalker sent me a message telling me how she's not threatened by me who is she kidding?!. Anyway she should know she's only 'with him' because I've not even tried to get with him. I never will!

The other guy is not speaking to me what nerve!! I'm not talking to him either, he has really really disappointed me, but good thing is I really did not invest much in any of them. But thank God the quagmire is officially over!
I am really trying not to generalise, and categorise all men as punks, but it is really hard. Reading Pedestal Patty made me realise how it really isn't fair just judging men on the onset of meeting them without actually giving them a chance.
But right now I just do not feel like giving anyone a chance. I'm tired of searching for men to give chances to, I just want to focus on me. I want to go out just to have fun with my friends, not to attract men and get hit on or whatever.
I am tired of getting my hopes up, just for them to crush and burn. I'm sick of feeling obligated to do stuff, not because I honestly want to, but to avoid drama and feeling guilty.
I just want to be free. Free to dress badly when I go out, free to dance without some guy invading my personal space, free to plan my calendar the way I want without having to factor you in, free from hoping that I will here from you today, or that I will see you, free from trying to figure out corky, funny things to say to you. Puuhh I am done!
I just wanna continue living my life with no goals, without focusing on anything, just taking things one step at a time, with no obligations to anyone but myself, and of course my first love, my TV!
So here's to the next phase of my life! cheers!

xxx V xxx

Here comes the bride

This cake topper just brought a smile to my face. Why is it that it seems like nowadays women are the one's trapping and coercing men into getting married??
My wedding cake topper will be the other way round, the groom dragging me. I tell everyone who asks that I plan on getting married when I turn 38 years old for real thats in the next 16 yrs. When that time comes, these will be my cake toppers:

The covenant of marriage has just been degraded and abused. I believe that marriage should last forever, but we all know that doesn't exist in this crazy generation of ours. I would hate to get hitched then get a divorce, and the divorce rate world wide has sky rocketed sadly. 
Everyone I tell about my goal to get married at 38 laughs at me and says how I will end up being the first to get married among my circle of friends NEVER!!! If I do get married before then, Im eloping and not informing anyone about it till I turn 38.
My logic is, the later I get married, chances are I will have a shorter, happier marriage since I am already knocking on deaths door anyway. Does it make any sense? I already busted my mother's bubble and told her about my future marital plans, and she totally understood it :) shock!
The questions that are usually thrown at me are

who will marry such an old woman?

what about kids?

I might decide to cougar and marry a hot piece of man candy that would be heavenly or I will just find someone who is worthy that will have me, I dunno, I will cross that bridge when I get there.
As for children, that has not been factored into the equation, but all I know is that I wanna procreate when the time is right, when I can be the best fit mother ever!

As for those women who trap manipulate/force men into marrying them, there's no need. The man will never be truly yours if he did not chose you, and you will never be happy..

hhhmmmmmmmm

Yesterday a million things were running around in my head that I needed to blog about, but now I'm almost blank almost.
Anyway these thoughts particularly weighed on my mind my grammar is going to the dogs fyi:
I met him, got to know him, and kinda started liking him. Then, communication was reduced to a minimum, and all the deal breakers I had noticed could no longer be ignored. + emotional men scare me. I thought he had also gotten bored just like me, but now all of u sudden, he's interested again i think telling me all these things, and I'm just shrugging them off kinda because I dunno if I can be more than his friend, and I do not wanna lead him on aaaarrggghhhh If this was happening like last week, before I knew what I know now, then I would have been more excited rather than panicky.
I met another him, cute, sweet, ambitious, and my over active imagination was already going ahead of itself and conjuring up a future for us I never do that usually. So he left the province, haven't seen him since August, got bored, and thats where I am at now, waiting to see what happens when he comes back. It's Wednesday now, i'm still not surprised. If he was giving me fake promises of pudding remember that facebook application called superlatives? I will not be amused at all, and will never take anything he says seriously.
So before I had no idea who I was leaning towards, now that I do, it doesn't seem so feasible bummer
I think some of these things I wish them on myself. It's easier when I am just dealing with my family and friends. These maneno for boys.....

Peep these shoes i stumbled upon on the net:

I would never in my right mind wear those. What happens if I need to take off my shoes when entering someone's house? I would have to walk around pantsless??

I think the jeans would look really cool if they weren't attached to sneakers.

xxx V xxx

Unproductivity Galore!!!

• Who the hell decided we should work during the afternoons? Especially on a Friday??
• I bought a cool pair of old school sun glasses at 100 Kshs, they totally rock!! My Kikuyu mind is just thinking of how I will go buy them in wholesale and sell them at 500 a piece :o)
• It's so hot and humid, and I am dressed in all black wat the hell was I thinking??!!
• Damn the music on the radio today is crazy!! I have a radio at my desk, I do not even know what the hell is holding me down from dancing.my boss Tune in to 98.4 Capital Fm 
• I think it is about time I stopped wearing these shoes. I keep feeling like everyone is staring at them and seeing how worn out they are
• I need something exciting to happen, I have nothing much to look forward to this weekend. One of the boys said they have a surprise for me next week, but it's best if I do not think about it at all before I start creating unrealistic expectations.
• So many partys this weekend, which I do not think I plan on attending, but Im beginning to get tempted...
• Ha ha ha ha how wasted were those guys yesterday?? It is so funny seeing old people falling down drunk in the bushes, one after the other LMAO
• I have this constant need for change, hence the always changing my screen name on Facebook, changing my blog address, and now my template, I cant help it, monotony bores me to death  How dyu like my blog now??
• I need a life!!!

Those are just my random thoughts for today!! Enjoy your weekend! Smooches

xxx V xxx